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and will you ever love again?
it seems like right now is lost.
it seems like right now you could do without yourself
hold still this person you are
i know your quite better then what you've been behaving as
but you don't love anyone.
no not a single soul. there is nothing that you
could offer to anyone. filth, lies, they pour from
your mouth and cover me for what seems to be
eternity. i could never love someone like you in
return. there's no way were getting out of
this one alive but that's okay. not everyone's meant
for this kind of game we have in store.
there is a world outside of this town
there are people, strangers, you've never met.
there are new things to try and learn
don't take this for granted when you remember
what love is. respect the time you've been given.
let's not let it go to waste.

Overused Phrases

pour the champagne
don't worry about who you hurt tonight
he looks at you, you look at him
across the room you can hear each other's heart beat
you know that just for tonight you can let yourself go
should you? of course not. but that doesn't stop you right?
you remember the first time this had happened.
you went into the woods, he smelled spicy and dry.
your intentions had been fair. it was only a matter of time
before things started boiling down to nothing though.
it's time for a toast to bad memories and wounded relationships
he follows you into the elevator, you ask him were he's going
he says anywhere your going also.
you forget about those you've left behind at the party
they are really just fragments of a bigger picture
you rethink your decision but why should you?
it's not a big deal right? he follows you into your hotel
room. you intertwine, drunken, not really aware of
the scenery around you. this was a mistake you tell
yourself quickly. rushing out of the room he runs behind you.
your boyfriend comes off the elevator and sees you
two together. hair mussed, clothes half buttoned, makeup smeared.
you tell him you can explain everything if he would listen.
really can you? because explanations mean nothing at this point.

Absorb The Bitter Friend

End the feeling that gave you the most remorse
dug in to the left over embodiments that remained coarse
swallow the parts of you that you hold whole
finish off the scratched up marks on your soul
put the facts back in the proper order
calm the part of you that is full of disorder
wrench in a feeling of doubt and uncertainty
hold close the one that that was so familiar to me
smashing bones against the wall to remind us
that the world around us is still in flight
engrave the part of you that is in spite
infect those around you with love
they'll remember the good person who was once above
remind those who have completely forgotten you
and what they would do without you
be still that part of you that is filled with joy
recreate the charisma that was your best ploy


just remember. i loved the old you.

Story Book

close the door
open the window
collapse on your bed
rip out the paper
click the pen
write him a story
put on the new CD you got
walk outside
tumble in the grass
pick the opened flowers
go down to the creek
down by the water
dip your feet in
take pictures of the scenery
you know it'll dissapear when fall comes
watch the sky
wait till dawn
look out at the horizon
call him up
tell him to walk outside
tell him that every star
represents the amount of
love you have for him
he bikes over
you two lay on the roof
you reminisce about your day
you joke around
you get serious
he tells you how he'd be nothing without you
you tell him you love him more everyday
you share a moment in time
savor this.

Questioning, No Answers.

and may i ask this one question?
this one very simple question.
why would you throw away your life?
lies, breakage, a mouth full of non remembrance
on the streets i can see you gaping at what
your life could of possibly been.
even with your new group i can see
you lost, desperate for comfort from anyone.
i can see the way you turn things upsidown in
your mind to make it seem logical.
untie the ribbons with your hands plastered
to the gates, you aren't a saint.
not even close to a prophet. your worthless.
i tried to help you but you pushed me away
i knew what was best for you but you
acted like i was going out of my head.
there are so many things i wish i could tell
you but it's so pointless. like you'll really listen?
come on, let's be serious for once.


i called and i told them. that your time
is almost up. you follow your way to the
place that shines. it's easier said then done.
living is the hard part, don't make a mess
of yourself. this life only comes once in
a while don't loose yourself in a crowd
of non believers.

The Little Things

love, that's one way to describe it
when you feel it it's hard to get rid of it
it's hard to want any less.
it's hard to deal with all the other emotions
it causes frustration, happiness, fights, and peace
there's something about being with someone
who you would give your whole heart too.
someone that you would do anything for
love like this can be found anywhere at anytime
with anyone. love doesn't descriminate or deride.
love is a many splendid things.

Favor Winter

blind eyes see were we've been before
how could a stranger even recognize my faults
these people don't know me
they don't know my story
yet, they try and bash me and those who are close
to me around me.
i'm starting to think this is a conspiricy
people need to start thinking back to when they
were in the same situation
it's times like this when i don't understand what
people could have learned when they were younger.

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theres a wind chill in here
it's 4 below and the rains falling
i know, but this isn't what it looks like
long walks in the frigid air
and the grayness of the sky washing over us
who knew the cold morbid of winter
could be as romantic as we had favored it.

Promising Nothing

close your eyes
let's take a step back
to those days when things were easier
do you see how it was
it was all so simple
it was something we could revel in
bask in the sunlight and wash those worries
down your back. forget it, it's not our problem
we could sink into a matress of thoughts and dreams
pick out all the ones that looked promising.
it was those days when i was glad i had you
i was glad i stuck to you and you to me
we were the perfect group. we made each other
smile and laugh - now look at us.
boy, have times changed.

Lonely - Pleading Fantastic

there are things changing inside of me
the world is a different place then it used to be
i think and look that if i hadn't changed places in the world
then what i would be now is someone i wouldn't like at all
im trying to comprehend what is going on with me
i need to fight this person that feels the need to cause difficulty.


step back take your time you know where im
going with this mess.
it hasn't been long since you felt the same way
i reopen myself to new possibilites
its a strange thing but it's so very much needed.

May This Night Never See Mourning

im tired of this winding down.
i need to relish on what i have
the doors openas i walk through
not knowing exactly where im going
im trying to cope with the pressures
of reality i face into today's day and age.
im sitting here alone in this house
trying to figure out what i've done
where i've come from, and where am i going?
and YES, these are some of the greatest
questions, given to us by God.



hahaha.

Reality in Full Swing

so today is another conquest
i wake up into my own skin
it feels good to be home once again
all those nights spent awake with people
your pretty sure are the love's of your life
the ones that care.
they take a toll on you then all you want
to do is have a quiet evening alone
think about your progression over the
first month of this brand new year
it's amazing how one can change body and mind.
theres more to this life then we see
so as i take the time and relax for this weekend
i can begin to remember why im here,
take a load off my shoulders finally.
i need closure. i need comfort.